INCUNABULA

oh me.
hide behind my sleep
me oh my
hide behind my eyes
hey hey hey
hide behind the day

but I’ve been true.
I’ve been true.
been so true.

ooh ooh ohhh

day breaks.
sky falls.
fires are everywhere.
no one ever calls.

cloud fleets. 
heart beats.
nothing. oh never.
nothing ever dies.

it’s so lonely inside love.
it’s so lonely inside love.
it’s so lonely inside love.

so long love
so long love
but leave our ruins

ooh ooh ooh.

WANDERER WHITE

at the end of time
theres a friend of mine
took me at my word
on my private line
and the sun was round
as a dandelion

and you followed me out of grace
you followed me out of grace

push you off the wall
and you fall and fall
then you hold me down
then you push me round
i heard every sound
as your family drowned

and you followed me out of grace
you followed me out of grace

whooooooooooooooo-whooah

come on wanderer white!
wheres your fiery spite?
now's your time to shine
its the afterlife
you seduce all your friends
on their wedding nights

and you follow me out of grace
you follow me out of grace
you follow me out of grace

whooooooooooooooo-whooah!!!

CELIA JOHNSON

my baby bird’s broken
she hasn’t spoken for days
i carried her body
through the darkest part
of the maze
as she cried
oh she cried
i am thinking of her eyes
as the all branches waved goodbye

you don’t even know him
you won’t ever show him your face
you cover his eyes while you’re
filling his head with your days
i’m in twain
i am surgically slicing up the rain
i’m inspecting every link in the chain
i’m erasing every dream in your brain

da da da…

sometimes in the summer I
sleep with my doors open wide
was on such an evening I
learned Celia Johnson had died
and i cried
oh i cried
i am thinking of her eyes
i am thinking of her eyes
i am thinking of her eyes
as Trevor Howard says goodbye. 

FREEZE YOUR LIGHT

all their faces were
dull and faded
blues all washed out and
pixelated
there’s no proof they were
serenaded

but i will keep the camera on you
i will keep the camera on you
freeze your light.

dreamed he dragged from his starlight motel
a cardboard box with a broken handle
filled with lenses and roman candles

and i will keep the camera on you
i will keep the camera on you
freeze your light.

i love forever your guilty praises
hidden letters in smoky mazes
all the way down
all the way down

i will keep the camera on you
i will keep the camera on you
freeze your light.

A NEW ENGLAND DELUGE

once round the moon then broken down
i remembered what it felt like
to be young and free, in my body’s memory
running, never out of breath
dying over and over and in my death
the seven seas
blood running down my knees

and i have this picture
of your older sister  
as she’s running down the drive
after kicking in the hive
but i can’t sell you
this New England deluge
will you meet me down
on the floodplain?

billy eino was my tiny friend
he followed me around
until he gained my sympathy
at seven he was 3 foot 3
gym time, he rode on my back
cackling as the jocks kicked back
the soccer ball
he begged me, ‘please don’t fall”

but his aorta blew up one morning
my mother whispered in the car
of the murder of a star
but i can’t sell you
this New England deluge
but will you meet me down
on the floodplain?

And i drove for hours
and i brought you flowers
and i got down on my knees
begging baby please
but i could not sell you
this New England deluge
will you meet me down
on the floodplain?
will you meet me down
on the floodplain?
oh will you meet me down
on the floodplain?

THE SWIMMERS AND THE DROWNED

my lamb, my sheep
you confessed it talking in your sleep
you know that nervous system
isn’t yours to keep
my love, my pet
you know i memorized your silhouette
the way your eyes follow me
like some bad debt

your fails, your doubts
your sit-ins and your fade-outs
you need a parking lot to keep you
hollowed out
and clean, my queen
you spilled your whiskey in your magazine
why did you wait so long
to get your sad vaccine?

held up
held down
between the swimmers and the drowned
the bread you steal
between the hunger and the meal
now you see the known
through your faded rods and cones
alone

your arms, your cries
I still dream about
your tired eyes
the way you always bitched about
your low supplies

held up
held down
between the swimmers and the drowned
the bread you steal
between the hunger and the meal
now you only see the known
through your faded rods and cones
alone

HE GREW A WALL

so the wind told a lie
you were deceived by the sky
the sun refused your call
the moon denied it all
grew a wall

i hardly knew you at all
i slept for six days on the steps outside your hall
couldn't reach the high note
lost your only glasses swimming across the moat
grew a wall

couldn't move
couldn't talk
the only thing i hear is the clock
and the footfalls of the firefighters
but i never reached the typewriter

grew a wall
grew a wall
grew a wall

CHAPEL

i am
beaten
your silk worm
has eaten
my mulberry
heart

i’ll go
underground
i’ll go

underground
and the wind
will drown
me out

i was
blinded
the path sealed off
behind me
how long
will it last?

i am under
glass
i am under
glass
i am under
glass, glass

i left
bitter apples
for you
in the chapel
no sugar
in these trees

i have
burned them down
i have
burned them down
i have
burned them down
to the
ground

BRINGING DOWN THE BODY COUNT

oh maria
bringing down the body count
oh can you lift your hands up
into the rude sun?
i'm counting the compound eyes
staring at you and your face
behind the glass

oh maria
bringing down the body count
subtracting one death from every life
you bring better luck
to those you thought were dead
the corpses walking through the snow

seventeen, sixteen, fifteen

oh maria
bringing down the body count
oh can you hold your head up
under the dead moon?
how could you kiss me on the mouth
when my wife was sleeping
under you?

seventeen, sixteen, fifteen

oh maria
bringing down down the body count
oh maria
bringing down down the body count
oh maria
bringing down down the body count
h maria
bringing down down the body count

DIARY, RECONSTRUCTED

the fire blew through the tiny town,
the walls we knew were melting down
video tapes, super-8 movie reels
photographs of love’s appeals
a jar of dried out hawthorne leaves
a note inside, said: ‘what the hell do you believe?’

and i have been your eyes
i have been your eyes
i have seen through your eyes
and will these dreams reprise?

the secrets we kept
we all wrote them down
while the others slept
in their stolen crowns
we all witnessed the winds
as they pulled the trees
back into the earth and us upon our knees

god i need those words to remember you
when you were the one
i could not see through

and i have been your eyes
i have been your eyes
i have seen through your eyes
and will these dreams reprise?
will these dreams reprise?
will these dreams reprise?

IT WILL ALL COME BACK TO YOU

with my hat in my hand
and my ozone sigh
i made everyone
kiss me goodbye

i was overdressed
at the farmers ball
i had my nose in the air
thought i was above it all

i sold you silverware
for a good price
a handshake and a wink
would buy you thirty knives

but i was scared of you
i was scared of you

i introduced you to my father-in-law
before i knew your name
you told the same joke
to everyone who came

we were all stuck on a bus
with no license plates
the driver shared your flask
and i walked home alone
in your ice skates

someday if you let it
it will all come back to you
someday if you let them
they will all come back to you
someday if you let it
it will all come back to you
someday if you let it
it will all come back to you
someday if you let it
it will all come back to you
someday if you let them
they will all come back to you